dizzy baby

She said I was a dizzy baby, so she put me to sleep.

I took too many pills at the Halloween party, and convinced myself we were in a serious relationship. You were doing your homework in your headphones, and I was shirtless on your bed, annoying you with my foot - putting it in your hair, and on your neck. Your focus is like a pilot with your pencil in your mouth. Big puffy bottom lip, I’ll go to it now and see if I can pull you away for a second, just long enough to hit your heart a little, just a tap tap. I go in closer, she blows air out of the corner of her mouth which hits me, and her hair - blowing it into my face. I fall backwards dramatically, to get her attention. But I miss, somehow, and fall backwards off the bed and hit my head on the edge of the dresser. She’s standing over me laughing - I can see her full Pussy, my head hurts. She pulls me up, she still has the pencil in her mouth.

“you’re a dizzy baby, it’s time for you to sleep” she says, as I sit on the corner of her bed. Her mattress is soft, too soft, but it smells like a girl so I always sleep.

I like to hear you from upstairs, doing your little things. Always cute things in socks wandering around with your headphones on. She wouldn’t be caught dead in AirPods. She’s over the ears, always tangled up in something. Always with the hip bones sticking out. We’ve never used a condom. We only order Chinese.

Nothing lasts forever and this won’t last more than two weeks. But right now is here. I worship your nose, and the way your eyebrows go up right before you sneeze. The way you look down when I compliment you. The way your shoulders curve and your fingers are always squeezing something. The way your sweet mouth is buttered and you’re never online. The way you give me your body, like a small animal. Wouldn’t it be cool if I wasn’t making this all up? just to avoid falling asleep?

Living in invented spaces pulling from a dream, what a poet bitch. You can cuck yourself even when you’re alone - it’s fun. You should try it. Just stop breathing for a few minutes and see what happens.

You are the greatest fuck of my life.

Goodnight.